nade-depress na naman ako men! dahil na-realiza ko lahat ng mga bagay-bagay na nag-dedefine sa pagkatao ko noon ay unti-unti nang nawawala! i mean. what's wrong with me? ayoko nang magbasa (well, ndi naman...pero parang ang tagal-tagal ko nang hindi nagbabasa at kapag nagbabasa ako...ang bagal-bagal na...i am always distracted when i read), hindi na ako nanonood ng basketball (dahil! dahil! wala na si jong...of all people bakit si chot reyes pa ang pumalit?!? tapos...ewan, dahil siguro wala na ako sa kontexto ng highschool na andun yung mga co-basketball fanatics ko at mga varsity friends ko... (like hmm..) tapos di na rin ako nagsusulat bilang sportswriter ahahahahaa), hindi na ako ganun ka-un-involved (duh!), ndi na ako ganun ka-grade conscious (gc), ndiko napagtutuunan ng panahon ang mga bagay-bagay na super paborito kong gawin! bakit?bakit?bakit?
i really loved basketball men! bakit ganito na ako ngayon...i do not know anythin anymore...i am clueless kung sino na ang nasa mga team na gusto ko...even san miguel my love!!!!! waah! tapos ndi na rin ako updated with uaap stuff kahit na dati maski ndi up eh alam ko pa rin (dahil ba nawala na ang la salle ganun ba yun?) i mean c'mmon! i used to do articles on marvin cruz, on chappy (ahahahaha!) on maui!!!!! i even interviewed maui and da and whoever else! waaah! sino na lang ba kilala ko? si jabby? grrness! ndi na siya umabot sa mga interview days ko!!!! ngayon kaya ang aninag ba ay doing okay without me in it? ahahahaha! but whoever's their sportswriter, alam ba niya ang mga jargons and the correct ay to use it? alam niya ba kung pano gumawa ng tamang title? lam niya ba interviewhin sina jabby o kung sino pang varsity?!? kahi track ginawan ko ng article! what am i now? just a bowling aficionado? eh even bowling, i can't play well! i miss my old self!!!!!!!! yung basketball, tennis, volleyball and other sports-watching-and-enjoying-it me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tapos ngayon...alam ko namang kaya ko eh! eh bakit ako bumagsak? kasi sobrang nagpabaya ako..eh kung nung dating eko to hindi mangyayari to promise!
tapos ngayon, i'm becoming such an org-person, not that i'm regretting it...pero i know, isa to sa mga reasons kung bakit ako nagbago...kung bakit ako naging what i've become right now...i know i'm happy that i belong to such an org...and i do love my org...kaso...am i happy that i've become who i am right now? ewan...i really don't know....oh man! i really miss high school! i miss grade 7 when i first entered aninag...actually ito na yung "glory year" ko pagdating sa nahh...nvermind...pero ii really miss it! i loved those days! hanging out everday with your bestfriends...crushing on your editor...hating your editor-in-chief....laughing at your english teacher...singing nonsense made-up lyrics about your besfriend who has rosy cheeks...i loved that, man! haaay...and i hate that i can't even say "hi bu-high, elem goodbye!"..............................................
can i take a longer sem break?
and to those freakin flies biting my feet, get out! stop biting me!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hate bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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